Tomorrow! Again

Today was supposed to be my due date. I am greatful that I am feeling very peaceful, I even went and got a pedicure. Needed that so bad. Well tomorrow is my embryo transfer. I am optimistic and prayerful about what God has in store for us. There are 23 little possibilities that are waiting for their mommy tomorrow. I am sure that we will choose the absolute best one. Regardless of the outcome I will continue to praise God for my life and health. If I could speak to my son this is what I would say.......

Hey Anthony,
Mommy wants you to know that you are always thought of and forever in her heart. Your daddy and I thought that we would possibly be meeting you today but our Heavenly Father had other plans. He gave us you so that one day your brothers and sisters will make it safely here. Without you Mommy would have never known that ther was a problem with her cervix. Without you Mommy and Daddy would have never known how truly strong their relationship is and will continue to be. Without you we would not have been parents. While you only grew in me almost 19 short weeks you were very much loved since before you were conceived. Let me tell you a secret. Mommy was told that she would not have it easy having children. Boy did they hit the nail on the head. That is ok, the experiences that I've had make me cherish each and every child more and more. Sometimes I think that I cherish my students more than there own parents because I know how extremely precious bringing a child into this world can be. I am so happy that you are at Grandma's house where I can see you whenever I go over. I know its not often enough but that is because I know that your body was just a mere vessel that your spirit was inside. You had a job to do and you fulfilled your mission. While I wanted you here God needed you more. I love you always little boy, today, tomorrow and always.